how much more?

I really dont know how much more I can take of this? I get my confidence built up, i get excited, i start FINALLY seeing some progress with all the work im putting into it and yet i still cant GET it...i still get let down, i still have empty promises, and i still feel my confidence dwindling.

How much can one person take? how much can their heart take? getting their hopes up each and everytime, on a dream they have had for forever, and constantly being broken down. I CANT let this get me down. I HAVE to keep on going foward. i WILL go forward, i will MOVE on and fulfill my dreams. i deserve it. i deserve to be successful, i deserve to do something that i love and adore., that i dream about, that i think about all the time. This is something i have lived and breathed for years and i will not let people get me down. i KNOW this is what im meant to do, no matter what. my time is coming, i will see my perserverance pay off. Someday...